I am nine days away from my due date, May 21st and I feel like it is never going to come. I hate playing this waiting game. I had Aiden early (about nine days) so I just figured this one would be early too.... I guess she has a different plan though. She must be stubborn like her mother!! Regardless, I know that everyday I am one day closer to holding my baby girl. I can't wait to see how big she is, how much hair she has, or who she looks like. It is all just so exciting. On the other hand, I am nervous. I never had to plan so much with Aiden. I had Gary here... everything just fell into place. Now this time I don't have him here, and it scares me. Everyday I am thinking about where I will take Aiden, who is going to drive me to the hospital, what if my sister and my mom can't make it to the hospital--am I going to do this alone? How will I notify Gary? Will he find out about his daughter the same day she is born or will it take days for him to find out? I think about the labor/delivery and I wonder how I will ever do this without him here by my side. I took him for granted when we had Aiden, and now that he isn't here I would give anything to bring him back home. I am just thankful for web cam and e-mail. Even though he is 1,000 miles away, it helps make him feel a little closer. I just need to keep reminding myself that this is only temporary and he will be home with us again soon.
It is getting late.... oops, I wasn't watching the time. I need to get Aiden to bed. Hopefully the next time I post I will have pictures of a baby!!!!
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